He is just so .... argh!!!
There's a new guy in the picture.
Wow, the way i say it makes it seem like we're going out. haha. Anywhos.
And it's been soooo long since i've been love struck. Damn this love sickness. Fudging fudge fudge i hate it when i have love sickness. Oh wells. Something good better happen to me soon! =]
Everything in this world changes. Whether you like it or not. My life has been completely altered this year. First i was a happy student at Monaro High School, with my best friends around me and us always having fun. Then my life took a major turn by moving to Malaysia, when i started to go to cempaka and met some people that are my friends, and other people that i thought were my friends. There was only one reason that i wanted to stay in Malaysia and that was to stay with my new friends. But now there's less people i want to stay here for. To be more exact there's only 2 people. Well 2 main people. There's other people that i want to stay here for, but i can't tell you them, coz they don't really need me in their lifes. Well, not that i know of.
I need someone in my life that i can use as a safe zone, someone that i can tell everything to and i will know that they won't tell anyone. It's like i'm bella, and who i need is jacob black in New Moon. I need someone i can trust. Unfortunately for me, i don't know someone like that. Well not yet at least.
Abuse is the sometimes the best way to let out the pain. Especially if you bash up the person that hurt you. Unfortunately you might get in trouble.
There has to be SOMETHING that can make me forget about all of the troubles of my life.
Everyone hates their life at one time or another. It's a fact of life. You can never truly be happy with your life 24/7. Sure, people can pretend that they are always happy, they can pretend that they don't have any family problems, but they would be lying to their friends and to themselves.
But why do people do this? When people are being bullied or if they have depression they usually don't tell anyone until it's too late. Why do people have to be so afraid to speak out loud?
It would be better for people that had depression to just tell someone. And i know that people think that they can help themselves, that they don't need any help. But that's total crap! The best way to overcome depression is to tell someone, so that you don't have to fight the battle by yourself. But if you don't tell anyone, it's your choice. Your problem. But in the end you know that you have to tell someone, so isn't it just better to tell someone earlier rather than later so that you won't have depression for so long.
Why do people have to cyberbully?
It really lowers people's self esteem and that's one way that people get depression.
Maybe the person that's bullying you is jealous of you, or puts others down because they have a bad life at home, or maybe they just don't like you.
You shouldn't really fight back, but you shouldn't just let them bully you. You should tell someone that you trust what's happening. But who am i to say things like this? I myself bully people. I'm being a total hypocrite by doing that. Some people bully other people because of peer pressure.
If those people are really your friends, they wouldn't pressure you into bullying someone you don't want to bully. But you really shouldn't just stand there and watch, coz then they won't be your friend anymore.
I feel like i should now talk about Sharavana. I have nothing against him. Seriously. Sure, he may have asked me out and broken my heart when i found out that it was a dare. But who cares? It's in the past now, i don't need to stay in the past, when i have my whole life right in front of me! At first i couldn't believe that someone would do something so horrible to someone else. But now i know that it was just for their amusement. Well i'm happy that they are happy. I'm happy for them? Who would've thought that i'd say something like that?
The song fighter - christina augularia really explains that. Because they've made me stronger by doing something so mean to me. I really want to thank them, but don't you think it would be weird? Me suddenly talking to them after so long? It all happened by saying "ich tall people!" when he was around. Then he called me short girl...it was so confusing! Then he said that Ibrahim liked me, and i was all, wtf and stuff. I wonder if Varindra really does like me like they told me. That's all that i care about. Well maybe he used to like me. I just wish that i knew the truth!
I feel so confused. I don't know if i want to move back to Australia. Sometimes i feel like i really want to, and other times i don't. I wish that all of the friends that i really care about were with me in Australia. We'd probably all be in the top class coz of the hard curriculem here and the easy one in Australia.
# Crazy
# Love-struck
# Depressed
she loves
# Chocolate
# Friends
# You-know-who
# Sleeping
# Relaxing
her wishlist
# Ipod Touch
# New Phone
# Camera