Oh my freakin' goodness, what the hell is wrong with me, I wanna die. Not literally. Hopefully no one reads this.
So yesterday I went online on facebook and was doing what I usually do on facebook, then this guy, he added me like.. Tuesday or something. Whatever, but he added me, his name is Jake Wright, and this guy is cute okay? What can I say? I'm a sucker for blondes with blue eyes, shh, don't tell anyone.
Yeah, that's a picture of him. *sigh* Now I really hope no one reads this.. AT ALL! And that no one knows who writes this and so on.. Especially the people I've bitched about here.
Before I forget, I don't hate anyone at the moment and I'm sorry for all the mean stuff I've put about people on here. Back to the guy.
So yeah, his name is Jake Wright, apparently, and then he says you're hot, will you go out with me? And I'm trying to be nice.. But I don't know if it's nice when you say "Umm... I don't even know you" *sigh* And he's gonna keep persisting! I bet you he is! And apparently he used to go to MHS. Gah. Stupid men. I have to know if he's taller than me, what year he's in and how old he is (it's just a necessity). I bet he doesn't even have abs. :/ Unlike this guy below.
Oh boy you are FIIIIINE. Yeah, he made me fall in love with abs! Agh. ABS! Seriously, hotness! *drool*
I wonder if any of the guys I know have abs.... That would be hot.. I'm thinking about the guys in Aussieland for any people who know me.. Oh that'd be fiiiiine.
Gah. What have I become?! But anyways.. Back to the reason I wrote this post, that Jake kid. What am I going to do? Agh!!! I mean.. I don't even know him, and I don't think I'd like him in that way. *sigh* When did life get so complicated? Besides, I don't want to go out with a guy who I won't even meet in person because they don't live in C-town. I need a guy who lives in C-town, a guy that I can see pretty much anytime because they live in my area, not a guy who lives in another freakin' town! Sheesh.
But that guy with the abs? He is fiiiine. :)
Farewell.. And I hope no one sees this :S
Ok, it's a girl thing. Everybody fights. But girls do it in a bitchy, backstabbing way.. Most of the time.
Sometimes I feel like they don't really like me. Bec & Casey. Last week I was getting vibes. Bad vibes. Like there was going to be a fight sometime soon. I don't want there to be another fight. I hate them. Then on thursday, well it was just Miranda, Kaity & Casey there. And everything was alright. There wasn't any hatred and so forth. I don't want there to be a fight, but I don't think there's point in pretending to like someone. It's either friends or nothing.
She's my friend. Sure, she can be annoying but she is still my friend. I don't care if you guys don't like her but I don't feel comfortable about dissing her behind her back or when she isn't near you. How can you live with yourself? I don't know how I live with myself considering how I was treating her. I don't want any fights but when you guys bitch about her, I'm not going to tell her and I'm not going to join you guys. I feel guilty about knowing how you guys feel about her and stuff, but if I tell her it'll only be bad. The only thing I can do is be quiet. I want to be friends with all of you, so don't diss me about feeling this way. I didn't move back for fights, and she was there when you guys needed her. If only you guys stopped being a bitch to her because she deserves more than that. Have you ever thought about how you'd feel if that happened to you? She could feel horrible inside and you wouldn't give a shit. She could have something traumatic going on in her life but you don't care because you are just too oblivious, because you don't care. Please, please, PLEASE stop bitching about her. I can't take it anymore, and sometimes she's more of a friend than you guys are to each other. Ever thought of that?
I can't believe it. My own mother is angry at me because I didn't clear the table when she asked me to! Wth?! I mean, does she even know what I've been through in the past year? How I was so close to running away and committing suicide? The thought of that.. It just makes me want to commit suicide. To escape everything. I really wish I could cry more. Because letting out your feelings is good and everything. I feel like curling up in my doona and sleeping or crying or something like that. I don't want to have to deal with life.
As much as I wish I could be nice to her I can't. It's not me it's her. She just copies everyone and ignores everyone so she's only alright sometimes. It's just not fair. :(
You know those people that can get you from a really happy mood to a bad mood in just a few seconds? My mother is one of them shitbags. And guess what? She done it TWICE today to me. Her having friends will never cease to amaze me. What a stupid shit-ass gay hobo that has pms 24/7 and also happens to be a person that I love to hate. Why does she get angry at me when it's her that provokes me to be bad! Stupid shit. I'm running out of words to call her now.